Ever since Steve left the house that day, I knew that I wanted more. Just sucking his cock and being his bitch was not enough for me. I wanted to reach new levels of humiliation and submission that only big black men could provide. Days after my first gay sex experience, I tried calling Steve, but he was either out of reach or too busy with something else. I felt betrayed by those reactions because I thought he had truly liked me. I had to give up on him after a few weeks of constant failures. I needed and wanted more big black cocks, and that was the only thing that could satiate my sexual desires. Jerking off furiously multiple times every day never had the same impact that Steve had. Eventually, I gave up on him. I went to the internet to find other black men who were willing to make me their bitch just like Steve did. Unfortunately, even after all the invested efforts, nobody turned up. All the black men on those websites said they were “looking for something else.”